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| 30.10.2013, 05:06 - fezdmwqf - Hohlbratze - 908 Posts Jane's Story I am in the process of losing my task due to health reasons. I have arthritis in my knees and they literally gave up on me over the Christmas period, and ended up within hospital for a full week. (Knees the age of an 80 year old). Standard now physically I am unable to go to the gym, my own weight is rising fast and I feel bad. Mental health is actually suffering badly simply want the world to suck me in right now. It is like we need to look for a healthy balance yet Personally i think like I cannot still find it, I feel like I am on the edge constantly. I am 40 this season, with no job as well as feel like it the end of the entire world. Good thing. I am living, still studying my own Open University training course but now due to poverty may not be able to keep on we shall need to wait and see. It really is that brick wall I am heading for, I'm able to feel it. For a person with BPD life can be an up and down struggle, just about any little thing can appear huge (mountain out of a mole hill saying). I am on the constant roller coaster trip and I am scared of my own future. Being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder was a bit of a shock, I used to be told I had this a few years ago. I do not don't forget exactly when however i can think of a moment when depression was simply on my care prepare then after a assessment with my advisor and getting my adjusted care plan sent back through the post the idea, I saw BPD composed on it then I asked what it was. I used to be gutted, frightened of getting judged and thought I was mad, but I am not. This did make sense though I could relate totally to the diagnosis. Also i have Bi Total traits so depression plays a factor in my mental health. What is Borderline Personality Disorder? (Our view) BPD is where the persons emotions have gone a little haywire, may be a past lifestyle event has caused troubles in adult life on an emotional level. Fear of being abandoned, (I always feel that), and depression plays a part. I personally feel emptiness inside and I end up suicidal. If you make an online search BPD it is a very scary diagnosis but you simply have to remember who you are. I will be who I am and no one else can change that will. Not everyone has the identical traits and symptoms so the list of what BPD can be exhausting. The only real stables in my life are my family, the handful of friends I have, my personal cpn, the employment specialist in the CMHT and my gp. People are so important they are my constant tower of strength but I am scared Let me lose them and earn me worse. I am aware we can only rely on ourselves but help is good. Survival capabilities I use are the ones i have learnt in previous therapy. D N T. (Dialectical Behaviour Treatments), helps me consider dealing with the present, helps me be careful and lets myself put my thoughts inside perspective. You may ask what is DBT? it just like other psychodynamic therapies however, there is a little more to it. DBT helps guide you to deal with stressful/emotional situations; it can help you gain techniques and strategies into coping, and these coping skills an individual carry for the rest of your life. There also aspects of the therapy that enables that you take good care of yourself, by simply self soothing. Mindfulness takes on a major role in DBT too. DBT is a therapy that helps you stay risk-free without you even recognising it. It is life skills that you can refer back too when nothing else works. It is also about acceptance,www.sandlunds.se/parajumper/, accepting who you are and accepting a bad day. Furthermore about not being assessed. (Very important). I personally think of the DBT skills I have trained as my personal backpack full of suggestions, help,parajumper, support and also guidance to get out of problems (emotionally). Support by means of my CPN has helped me personally tremendously, with her backing I feel not so on your own to cope with what the evening brings me. I'm still me however feeling a little bit i'm sorry for myself at the moment but I know I will select myself up with regard to umpteenth time and stay risk-free. Well that things i am telling me personally at the moment. |